I call a do-over.
Dec. 7th, 2006 09:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I think I've used that same subject heading before. I've officially become lame. *stamps lame certificate* So today almost brought y'all a woe post from me. ALMOST. Went to bed blue. Woke up blue. Didn't help that the first news article I read was that they found James Kim's body. That poor family. (SF family that got lost in the mountains, for those not keeping up with Current Events) I'm missing Mr. S, I've been feeling overwhelmed by everyone's NEED and me being the only person that's needed (gah) and under-motivated to do anything, BUT.
I took the dog for our 5 mile walk (which quickly became a 2 mile walk when the wind gusted up to 30mph making the 40 degree weather feel WAY colder) and all I had on was my grey hoodie. I totally had a Uni-bomber look going, which for some reason cracked me up. Apparently, imagining that I'm a serial terrorist cheers me up. YOU'VE ALL BEEN WARNED.
Today is FUGGIN' freezing and so there will be a stock pot of turkey chili made. There will be comfort movie watching (as yet to be determined). There will be fudge consumed. There may even be, dare I say, a hot chai. What there WON'T be is: whining on my part. Any chores done. (screw 'em) Any errands involving me leaving the house. CRAP. Except for one, but it's my volunteer day at the library, but it's a half-hour, so that gets a pass.
I have monster writer's block. The creativity well done dried up. Who does what when that happens? I'm going to see if making scarves and fudge eating fixes mine. Probably not, but it's the EFFORT that counts. Heh.
And tonight is Best Comedy Night on TV night. My Name is Earl is okay, but THE OFFICE! SCRUBS!! 30 ROCK!!! <-- why aren't more people watching this? It's EXCELLENT. It's so damn funny. Plus, I heard a rumor that there's JD/Turk in the musical episode, hahahaha! Okay, blue mood is lifting.
I took the dog for our 5 mile walk (which quickly became a 2 mile walk when the wind gusted up to 30mph making the 40 degree weather feel WAY colder) and all I had on was my grey hoodie. I totally had a Uni-bomber look going, which for some reason cracked me up. Apparently, imagining that I'm a serial terrorist cheers me up. YOU'VE ALL BEEN WARNED.
Today is FUGGIN' freezing and so there will be a stock pot of turkey chili made. There will be comfort movie watching (as yet to be determined). There will be fudge consumed. There may even be, dare I say, a hot chai. What there WON'T be is: whining on my part. Any chores done. (screw 'em) Any errands involving me leaving the house. CRAP. Except for one, but it's my volunteer day at the library, but it's a half-hour, so that gets a pass.
I have monster writer's block. The creativity well done dried up. Who does what when that happens? I'm going to see if making scarves and fudge eating fixes mine. Probably not, but it's the EFFORT that counts. Heh.
And tonight is Best Comedy Night on TV night. My Name is Earl is okay, but THE OFFICE! SCRUBS!! 30 ROCK!!! <-- why aren't more people watching this? It's EXCELLENT. It's so damn funny. Plus, I heard a rumor that there's JD/Turk in the musical episode, hahahaha! Okay, blue mood is lifting.
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Date: 2006-12-07 06:27 pm (UTC)I'm sorry you're feeling blue.
*massive hugs*
A couple of things that really help me when I can't write:
1. When the issue is that I can't write something that I already have a clear idea for (i.e., the issue is not the idea but the execution of the idea): I write about what I'd like to be writing about. It really helps! Instead of trying to form sentences in just the right way or trying to hit the exact tone or getting the dialogue to flow in exactly the right direction, I freeform about the generalities. Why do I want to write this scene/story? What would I like to see? What are some elements that I'd like to include? What would I like to see happen to the characters at the end? That kind of stuff.
2. When the issue is that I can't think of anything interesting that I'd like to write: I start writing things that don't have anything to do with anything, that have nothing to do with themes or metaphors or revelations. Just the mundanities that are interesting to *me*, that no one will ever see. I start writing about why strawberry jam is Connor's favorite jam or start listing all the toys that he missed out on by growing up in Quortoth, or I have two characters go couch shopping. Silly things that make me happy.
For me, it's all about breaking past feeling like I'm pressured to write a certain way or a certain story, and doing these things helps me to write for writing's sake and it gets the creative juices flowing. So to speak.
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Date: 2006-12-07 06:45 pm (UTC)I'm definitely stuck in the execution portion - it's all very clear in my head what I want, and what the story is.
And if you ever wrote Connor experiencing a Sit-n-Spin for the first time, I would TOTALLY read that. :) I'm very much the kind of person that likes to talk about the writing process, and I've not done that at all with this particular fic for fear of conforming to other's wants or something, I'm not sure.
This helps me a bunch, thanks again. :*
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Date: 2006-12-07 07:08 pm (UTC)Talking with someone about the story you want to write is awesome, too! I love doing that -- there's nothing like getting excited about something you want to write, with someone who is just as excited about it. Another thing I like to do is send someone snippets of something as I'm writing it, and that someone knows that it's their job to say, "OMG GOOD JOB!" and only say good things. This isn't the beta stage, it's the formulation stage, and I'm trying to *not* self-edit. Getting that boost of encouragement along the way really helps me. (These same people rip my stories apart in the beta stage, which is also something I really enjoy. Heh.)
It's so hard, but do *not* let other people's work or perspective or whatever it is, keep you from writing what you want to write. This is what I tell myself: "I am the number one writer of fic by me. No one else can write the fic I write better than I can."
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Date: 2006-12-07 07:38 pm (UTC)Heeeee - I TOTALLY do the "give me praise!" snippet send, but for whatever reason, I've not done anything with this one fic. (This is the boarding school AU RPS with Vincent Kartheiser and William Mosely, by the way.) Like... I'm freaked about writing them AU. Which is just weird of me. And like you, I looooooove getting a hard beta. I want it to come back crippled and weak.
*salutes* Are you sure you're not secretly a cheerleader? This is really getting my brain in a good spot.
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Date: 2006-12-07 07:48 pm (UTC)Boarding school! VK! Willaim Mosely! (Uh. He's the kid from Narnia, yes?). I think that sounds fantastic!
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Date: 2006-12-07 08:01 pm (UTC)Yes - the full-lipped kid from Narnia. You can blame/thank Kita. Heh.
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Date: 2006-12-07 08:18 pm (UTC)Ros, you have BROKEN BREAD with this creature!! *boggles*
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Date: 2006-12-07 08:03 pm (UTC)I am cheering for you RIGHT NOW.
But privately. In my bunk.
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Date: 2006-12-07 08:13 pm (UTC)*points to icon made expressly for this as-yet-finished/posted fic*
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Date: 2006-12-07 08:17 pm (UTC)OMG icon! So cool! It makes me think of SPN, though.
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Date: 2006-12-07 08:20 pm (UTC)And I know, I know, I don't watch SPN, so I didn't think! HOWEVER: there are very few elite boarding school in the UK, and Win:Coll is where both Alexis Denisoff and joss Whedon went to school. Ahem.
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Date: 2006-12-07 08:28 pm (UTC)Yeah.
I don't watch SPN either! But I read femmenerd's fic. Hahaha.
Win:Coll is where both Alexis Denisoff and joss Whedon went to school. Ahem.
I wonder which was headboy.