Oh. My. God.

[stoney321]

I found my journal from my first year in college. In Mormon Utah. You know that picture that I want to be on the cover of my memoir/book? I just found where those two missionaries had written their names into my journal.

What the ever loving-

Like, they must have seen it on my desk in my dorm room (that's where that picture is from), taken it, and put their names and info in my FREAKING JOURNAL. Wow.

Also, I am completely embarrassed by my self-professed bravado and almost slavish dedication to my faith. I describe the attractive attributes of boys as them having "really strong spirits and testimonies." I was 20! I should have been checking out hot asses! And when guys chastened me with their superior intellect in all things spiritual, I called them "awesome studs" and remarked about "how much I have yet to learn."

GOOD GOD. Wow. I've, uh, come a long way since then. O_O

[ETA] OH HAIL NAW. I referred to this one boy as my JOHNNY LINGO. I could die. Never doubt that I was hard core LDS, haters. :(

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[turnonmyheels.livejournal.com]

It was pod!stoney!

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

IT TOTALLY WAS. I was LDSBORG!Stoney, fo sho.

[dovil.livejournal.com]

Ahahahaha. Nerd.

and remarked about "how much I have yet to learn."

Mini-stoney had no idea alright! :D

Love the cover!

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

TOTAL nerd. And I wrote my journal like I expected someone to read it.

...

Things haven't changed, huh?

[kita0610.livejournal.com]

...

I don't even.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

I KNOW. The self flagellation to honor the Almighty Priesthood!!

NO NO NO NO NO!!!

[gehayi.livejournal.com]

I describe the attractive attributes of boys as them having "really strong spirits and testimonies."

If I heard a 20-year-old girl describe a boy like that, I would translate the line as, "really strong muscles and cute rear ends--but they're missionaries, so I feel like I have to describe them in pious terms."

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

Hahahahaha! I may have meant it that way deep, deeeeeeeep down. But I just loved how dedicated to the Lord's Work they were! SEXY. o_0

[fabrisse.livejournal.com]

*pats your back soothingly* There, there, dear.

When I was twenty, I was such a prude I walked out of a stage show because it implied sex. It's amazing how straitlaced I was.

What gets me is that one of those young men looks so much like one of the elders who came to dinner. *teehee*

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

Ha, that's awesome.

[minstrel666.livejournal.com]

When I was twenty I went to college and started become progressively more awesome/mature/confident. It's high school that I wish to forget. Goddamit was I a tool.

I used to write these letters on A4 sheets to one of my platonic girl friends (which is not a girlfriend. She is a girl and a friend) and seal them with wax, try to join every club/activity and then flunk out immediately when it turned out I sucked (I probably just didnt have the discipline to dedicate myself) and all other things. Get me drunk and then say "high school". You will hear stories.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

It took me getting divorced with two babies before I got mature. BOY I WISH IT HAD BEEN EARLIER. :D

Once I get you drunk, I now know the code word. AWESOME.

[ateenwriter.livejournal.com]

I want your book so bad now LOL

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

And I want you to have it! *pokes agents* :D

[a2zmom.livejournal.com]

Oh, you sound so cute. Thank goodness you've changed.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

LOL at sounding cute. Hyper-spastic, that was me. And OH, the earnestness! Wow.

[shank-lander.livejournal.com]

Two years ago I had a bunch of stuff stolen from a storage unit I rented, one of the tubs contained some of my old journals. I'm glad to know where they ended up!

Precious thoughts, huh?

I followed your link to your old post about Johnny Lingo, and now I want to know how Saturday's Warrior is about birth control.

[arcana-j.livejournal.com]

Oh my...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9yQkz77CngI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=agBfkAj9l4I
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxuUh01VovU&feature=related

I have no words.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

The whole point of the musical is to show the twin son how wrong he is on wanting his mom to not have another baby. There are musical numbers about it: Population Zero, for one.

It's the whole POINT of the musical, wrapped up in LDS PR.

[abright1dea.livejournal.com]

I found your journal via your Twatlight post.

Is there anywhere you write about how/when/why you left the church?

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

Oh man, this journal is 6 years old. You'll have to click on my tags. "Mormons" would be a good start. ;)

[parthenia14.livejournal.com]

I am having flashbacks to my 16 year old Born Again self. *little cries of embarrassed horror*

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

There, there. *pats* You weren't the only one. We're better now, aren't we?

[oatmellow.livejournal.com]

My daddy, being of sound southern heritage and the non-bread winning member of his coupledom, told me to go to school and find me a man who would 'take care of me.' Now, I love my daddy. I do. But to this day, I laugh at the hypocrisy in that statement. My mom made the money and ran the household, so in his emasculated state, he decided his daughter needed a man to take care of her.

Um. yeah. He does admit that telling me that was probably the best way to get me to finish school and get a good job because I'm just too oppositional. He'd like to believe he did that on purpose but he knows he can't pull that off. LOL

I just read your Johnny Lingo blog. I wanna be a 12 Orca wife, too!

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

In Mormon Culture, that's called going to school for your "M.R.S."

And oh, the joy of men telling us to get someone to care for us, when we do the lioness's share of the work. :D

12 Orca Wives! I'm making up the t-shirts now.

[anelith.livejournal.com]

I'm sure we would all be shocked to go back in time and see ourselves at that age. It's a lot longer ago for me than it is for you! :D

Do you think those missionaries actually read your journal? Or just opened it long enough to write their names? Either way, WEIRD.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

It's sobering, to be sure. :)

You know, I just don't know. I can't imagine them being able to do that, but then, I don't know how they got the time/chance to sign it! Maybe they talked my roommate into letting them? They were around ALL the time, and that was against rules, I might add, as we were single young ladies. It's just blechy.

[kwritten.livejournal.com]

I keep my old Mormon-journals around to keep me sober. Every time I think I've beaten back all the crazy brain-washing, I open one to the first page and remember. (Course, each journal begins with a faith-inspiring page and ends with a complete 180.)

I always forget what it was like, sometimes I'd like to assume that no one thinks that way. That *I* could NEVER have thought that way... but then I peered at my cousin's journal. It's true. It's scary. And I'm so glad I can't remember how it's possible.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you're definitely not the only one. It's like you finally emerge from the hive-mind and realize that up is actually down and right has always been left. It's that much of a shock, right? Bah.